Death.
Do I still am worthy to live? Betrayal. Betray. Isn’t that what I’ve been always living like? Yet, for once, I have managed to control. For once, I’ve obeyed. Yet. This very last few days. Betray? Obey? I don’t know. Death. Death can go get me now. I have no more reason to live. My sacrifice? Hah. I’ll use my death as the sacrifice instead. In the last few days of insanity, what have I learned? I don’t know. However, I have been struggling. It seems everything fell down on me. Hope, where did my hope go? No. It didn’t appeared. But it did, at the last day. However, I seemed to have not use the light. I ignored it, probably. I’m already out of my sanity. Yes. Thinking, thinking. Always thinking. Late nights. 4am sleeps. Death. Bloodshed. Kill. Am I not insane? Kill. Feast. Claws. Ah, how beautiful it is being a vampire, no? Hah, sanity. Where is mine…? Still, managing to control. Control. Yet in the end, I still didn’t had it. Did I stopped sleeping late? No. Did I stopped about thinking of how cool it is to kill and vampire-like? No. Did I stopped my thoughts full of passion and hate? No. In the end, did I managed to supress everything? No. And just when the year was ending, huh? Is there still hope for me? I doubt it. So. Am I finally free to die now? Death. Death. Death. Death. Die. Die. Die. ……………………………………………………… I have to. There’s no other way. I’ve broken the perfection. It’s all ruined. Therefore. I must pay. Pay.
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Strange huh…? Sanity, mine’s quite failing recently. Especially in the recent days. And I just had an outbreak of it so ya, emo post for you. But yes, they’re quite true. Yet, if the hope only came sooner when I still had the ears to hear, right…? Hah. Yet, there is still hope? New year is new life. So, can I still alter the past? No. However, I can start doing good in exchange of the dark past. Yes. But, wasn’t that what I was doing before my sanity collapsed the last few days..? Yes. That is why, I’ll continue. Continue. Continue. Continue. Why? Simply because death is a gay technique used for people who does nothing but to run and escape. Death is only prescribed by god, only will be applied for the right time. Therefore, unless I am given the treatment, I must continue. Yes, I shall learn from this mistake, and all the mistakes in the past. Over and over. Isn’t that life? Isn’t it a bore? No. Because the fact of fighting off your last mistake and the fact there’s a new mistake in your face, waiting for you to learn it all again, there’s always that time we’ll fall and learn. Therefore? Next time, I’ll definitely call for the hope. Next time I’ll definitely hold the line. Hold the line more longer. Until that unexpected time, LETS PWN TEH DORK DARK SIDE~!
And before I go to sleep, since it’s getting pretty much late (again), ZOMGZ Kara no Kyoukai IS GETTING A MOVIE! WOOTAGESAURUSREX!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh. I has new vid card. Or not. Lets see after this week, okay? Oh ya, I recieved lots of…………. freaking low-quality shirts. Yar. Not that I didn’t expected it <.< Oh yes~ A cat is fine too. NOT. I should stop cats. Cats. They’re not fine too. ^^;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; Yar. GGed.
OOOOOOOOOH YAAAAAAA While in the past few days, I’ve managed to get help, not from hope, however from THE OBLIVIONS! Yes, the evil I face is the evil who also helped me. Or not exactly the same, however, from the same, side huh? Yes~ Oblivion. Pugana. Elder Scrolls. 4. Oblivion. Uriel Septim. Morrowind. Martin Septim. Redguard. Orcs. Catpeople. YES~! IT WORKS DAMN FINE ON MY PC FOR SOME WIERD REASON> AND TAT SPELLING OF WEIRD IS WIERD LAWL! Oh, and not to mention if I have new vid card, IT’LL BE EVEN WAY MOAR BETTAR THAN TARTAR SAUCE! So ya. Byes and good night. Hope there’s still morning to shine. OH AND HOPE FOR MORE HOPE-MOMENTS~!
