Reformation
It has been. What? How many weeks already? I have spent time and time. What? I’ve been thinking everything over and over. Everything. All. A thinker can easily realize how BS everything is. Yes. Everything is. But, what is it today? I had lost hope on the very meaning of life itself. Yet, why still I dare come back with a half-smile?
Because. Simply because a light shined brightly. A sign I was waiting for. It may not be any meaning. But it is a light. A simple light. Light livens up a dim room. Light livens up a dim soul. It is that simple.
What has been the light? Many. All flowing in. One, ayyo. ayyo is one of my favorite bloggers, the famous makenai desuwayo! blog. What about him? He moved on. He just closed his blog a couple of days ago. The point? Time and acceptance. Time is important. There is a time for everything. When this time is over, it’s time to move on and accept. That is it, simple, isn’t it not? Seeing someone move on, why the hell am I still sitting here? Move on. Move on. Above the many, many mistakes you seem to have promised to forbid them, yet doing yet again. Move on. Accept that you had made your mistake. And there will be time that you will again. But. Wait for the right time. When you may possibly not break your promise. Yes. There is that time. But, there is always an adjusting period. Not everything can happen in an instant. Yes. We have to slowly change, if we want to do so.
Light. A light of friendship. Easily, by just a text. Pinpointing out my mood. My current status. How? Oh, I do not know. But perhaps it was fated? He found out I was not feeling my best. He tried to help me out. He, perhaps is a real friend. Friends. Those who care the most? It was unbelivable. By just through written words, how could he have knew? Troubled? Yes. I was. Knowing there are people who really care. Why won’t I move again? Let us go. Not to fail them more, huh? Friends. What should they be? I don’t know. Sometimes, you want them to be the one who you can be fun with. But sometimes, fun is never a factor. It is how they care that counts. Perhaps I’ll have to start shedding off some? Some are rather thick-headed. Confront them with a mask and they won’t see. Confront they without the mask and they act rather not-really in a comfortable position for you.
Change and hope. Today. Change. Hope. There was a big change. Hope shined once again. What? Beating ET in a match today? Sure, Drew isn’t there, nor their big shot Neri. But whats the big deal for me anyway? It’s because change. As a leader, I’ve changed. I’ve adapted to the situation. I commanded what is deemed to be the best action of the moment. AoE strat? Use the Sentinel’s 4/4 heroes. Pick them off one by one. But, adjusting to the very laggy situation? We cannot. That is why we resulting in a Def/Off position. In the initial plan, it was even planned to have a Lancer pushing the sides indefinitely while we battle out mid. Plan. Adapt. Change. Breaking our mid. We broke through their sides. At the final hour. The intense battle cools down. This is definitely the time you’d want BD. But, I should not care no longer. It is hard. Facing your old mates? It is indeed hard for me. Especially, facing your old mates, and students? But one thing is for sure. They still have a lot to learn. Yet they cancelled out the plan. So now it’s their fault. And, I’ll try to do my best. Enlighten them. The true playing style of DotA. Perhaps. One of the last days. I’ll properly, finally give them the final lesson. Drew, Marc, Jarv, Gabby. I’ll eat them whole. The final lesson, huh? It was sure fun. I hope we’ve fought together and we’d be undestructable. But, fate changed it’s wheels, huh? So this is why. I’m adapting. And changing, just for you guys.
Hope. Moving on. Friends. All of those, actually can be related to each other. With a reformation plan I’ve come up, it is defintely related. Hope. CT hopes to be the best. Not really CT. But representing CT, I hope for the best. I want to be the best among the rest. And in my case, it’s plain and simple DotA. Moving on. So, it really is done. We’ve parted. No more a-q. In anycase, goodbye~. Friends. We would slowly be with each other. As we fight all through this. As I lead them to, victory. Friends. I would need the assistance of an old friend of mine. Yes. I’ve finally decided. At all costs. As much as I can. I’ll try to convice Gian back to playing. As for the real line ups. I really only need two people at my side if ever I will fight. It’ll be Gian and Melvin. The rest? As long as they can listen and perform atleast well enough. It’ll be fine. What about DotA classes? Fine, I guess. Let them resume. But, I really see less hope now. They’re lacking advances in any case, and lacks a real on-head trainings. But probably, that’s the best for the meantime. Meanwhile, I"ll have to convince the reformation. Or something. I’m weird again~ =P
So yes. After reforming myself. It’s time to wake up. Time to move. So let’s go on. And continue to the future ahead~
