Shiawase no Hibi(?!)

Atashi no honto no kimochi… Wakaranai… … I don’t know. Once again. Sadness~ Not silly sadness like the one with the same title the other year. But this time, I really feel something empty inside. Ah. The future. A few days from now. I dont know. Bad. Why? Why is this not for me, but is for someone else whos the same as me? No. Actually, I dont want what that wants. That longs for something else. I wish for the best. But. Why is fate cruel on everyone? I, who is the witness, can not do anything. The victim, not knowing anything. And the suspect, still does not notice it’s wrong. Oh. What could I ever do… And, in the upcoming days, we could say it like this. The suspect is to act a plan on the victim. And realizing this as the witness. Still. I can’t do a thing. No, it’s not directly like that. But it’s still the same. I… don’t know. Even with the uproaring previous events. Even if a big treasure was recently dug out. Still. Nothing. Nothing helps. Torment. There’s still many days to go.

Tormenting around. Tormenting in me. Tormenting with me. And conquering my happiness. It devours my joy. Do you feel it? No. Not a soul can. And for that, I am tormented. The torment that inhabits my soul.

Alright enough Leshrac-ripping. But still. Can I act? I want to. But doing so is really fatal. Even if I do the right thing, everything will change. If I do the wrong thing, everything will change. Fatal change. It’s no longer about the witness, suspect, and the victim. As I call out the crime, then the whole world will revolve through the three people. Is that why I cannot act? Perhaps. No, probably, indeed. That is why no one must know. And I must act alone. But still. What can I do alone to help? What can I do alone that no one else will know? No. I simply cannot just eliminate the suspect. Because simply I cannot do that, atleast directly. But, indirectly? No. I still lack the skills to do so. And the bonds of fate are strong with the two. That’s the main wrong in everything.

Hah. I dont know. Problems. Problems. I’m full of them. Indeed. Run? No. I do not think of that. But if there’s one thing I want to do. It’s fixing them. But, why are the problems given to me not-fixable? Unless I do something big? Unfair. Unfair indeed. What happened to choice, if there was no valid choice in the end? Flaw. The biggest flaw of the world indeed. Unfair is fair. But, freedom given but no valid choices? Then the world shall fail. Actually, it already is falling. Perhaps. Soon. Death.

Break. Break. I don’t know. Write more? Don’t know. One thing I know, honto no kimochi is indeed the best song ever. Explains about me everytime. Gotta love it~