Shiawase no Hibi(?!)

Weelll, first off, first post after a week~ I really do not know; I just didn’t feel like posting after the retreat, and only do now, since, I may as well forget everything I was going to. So I have to do it before I forget

First; let’s talk about Karma. As an opening, here~ So today dismissal time, I was there with Raf and the others, lol-ing around. Then they don’t want to go to the CR so I left them. Going to the CR… 3 little kids playing some sort of tag, one did a whooooooooop and fell. I thought to myself. Ouch. That’s gotta hurt. And laughed a bit to myself. In the CR, crcrcr, I thought, heeey. I should be a role model, and help the poor kid up. I laughed again to what I was saying to myself. And just as I was leaving the CR, I almost slipped. Karma-ed So next time I should help the kid eh?

The thing is; there’s this thing that prevents me to do it. You know, you wouldn’t really like doing it, being seen doing it, it’s something only seen in TVs, not in the real world etc etc. But I wanna ask myself; are there really no people who’ll help out in the real world? Because this world is simply a staged one, we’re still in school, not a real world. What you do, everyone will care. So; will there someone who’ll not heed the looks of others in the real world and help out? *sigh* I want to do it too :/ or something.

Moving on, back to some days, reflections. First off, to my family. Simply put, retreat owns up npnp. Moving on from that, reflections on that problem. I don’t know. Seriously I don’t know. I said I’ll leave it to God, as long as happiness and righteousness is the path it takes. But you really can’t stop moe and still want to do it. Maybe it’s a coincidence, but it isn’t Nodoka anymore, not just the numbers, but many things. Lost my moe? Probably. Not only that, but you know. Hating, fake hating, all of that. Currently, I really don’t know my stand, nor its stand. It’s sooo weird.

Not to mention, when you’re many persons inside. You know me, different names, supposed different peoples. But seriously though, I don’t get myself. I don’t know myself. Silent, kinda-shy, pure and good. Yet there’s this side of trashtalking, loud, and all. I don’t get myself …so… Quoting myself from the past… How can you help others if you don’t know yourself? I keep on helping others yet I can’t to myself. *sigh*

Moving on; moe seems to be moving I don’t know, but Jei-kun has really been… special recently. From (forced) sitting on his lap the other day, the treat earlier, and all those precious time together. Don’t know. Moe. Seriously an amazing force.

And thinking about precious time… I’m still not using and spending my time effectively. I should really start moving. These days passing by one by one; all these beloved moments with my Comtech Family. You know, it’s really something to miss. Moving on to College Life; something I really don’t want to. I want everything to be like this. It isn’t achieving happiness, but it’s happy enough for me. It’s something you want to be in forever. Sadly, time doesn’t stop for anyone, anything. Sooo, all these days, the hard quizzes, the teamwork with the family, the little chit chats, those moe moments, bad moments, fun times, all of them. Slowly, surely, everyone realizes it. It’s out of our grasp, it’s just our fate, as it is with all students. Months. A wee bit more, and goodbye. Separation. This is goodbye?

As it is in eroges, especially those school themed, which are oh so memorable, I may not have the lovely <3 moments, but I do know, it’s been, seriously, heck a lot of fun. Speaking of eroge, I’ve started on my Crescendo just yesterday. And I may say, it just hits right the spot; graduation theme for a graduating students. Characters are really memorable and sweet, just wanna play more.

As an update, recently, just this week, I discovered something godly. PlayAsia accepts Western Union sending~! Yes~! So I’m now farming to buy Higu Character CD 3 which ofcourse is the lovely Rika/Satoko album <3 Not to mention adding some other albums, depending on how much I’d farm at the end of the month. Gogogo~

As a last one; I must say. Summer season is definitely hot. But most of all, I really can’t wait for them cicadas’ cries again. …speaking of cicadas; I think I’ve heard them at Batulao at the retreat. If they are classified as cicadas though

That’s it for me, bye beeee~