Shiawase no Hibi(?!)

HE was angry at him, but luckily, he met HIM.

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Project 12 Days. Welcome~ To simply put it, Project 12 Days if a, well. A personal project for Christmas of mine. Mm, alsoooo, as a rule, pleaaase do not spread the link to Shiawase no Hibi. Else….

Moving on…

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HE was astonished. For HE and him was completely different, this time, fate had given HE something similar. HE met HIM. HIM was something like HE, in likes and thinking. HE thought. That’s what HE thought.

HE was happy. HE had fun. Yet, as time goes, fate would eventually turn and show her true end.

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Venture deep in the words. What is intended, is explicitly shown.

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Sigh… This is so unlucky :/// Well, since I am in a deep pinch right now, this one wouldn’t be as polished as the other ones… This I regret, but it must be done.

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To simply put it, you know. It is very unfortunate, as we are people of the same interests, yet different beliefs.

I am sorry. To put it like that explicitly, because despite these differences, you would still try to gap them. And yet, I would be the one to be bad.

…sigh. Really… I have to cut it here, fate is working and meading his knead again, and this time I can’t defy it.

Sigh. Probably one of these days we’ll just have a straight talk, alright~?

Thanks. And yes, sorry for the time.

Project 12 Days: Inc Day 7.

Hey. Hai. Hei. :O

Welcome to project 12 Days. Let’s see, let’s see… Mm, so basically, project 12 Days is inlined with the whole Christmas Season, and here is your share :3

This is to you, a dear friend of mine. For three years we have known each other, every moment has been great. Do you still remember our first words to eachother? Uh. No. I don’t remember it too :O But still, I remember how we got together. I remember it all well.

I was drafted to a new seating arrangement. Next to you. :O And with my fame around DotA, you suddenly asked me something. And it began. Sounds stupid but yeah.

Though really, unlike the other ‘12 days’ in this project, I can say this lightheartedly. You have been a dear and close friend. Thanks, is what I can only say.

Thanks for those small games we had. For the idle conversations we had. And for the problems-solving talks we had. For my new games For the free downloads. But importantly, for all these precious moments. You have been part of it. And for that, it is all very appreciated.

Really, this is quite short. But. Ah well.

I present to you your gift. Well. Unlike the other Christmas-es we had, finally, something even more useless :O Well, it’s a thank you gift. It’s. A. Food. It may remind you of me. Or food. But eitherways, I am glad that I’ve met you. To me, you were as important as that. Food.

So yeah. Rly short compared to others, but. Thanks. Really, when do I stop saying thanks. Oh. Also. Goodluck. I can still remember you telling me about your chicks hunting

Yeah. Bai? Buy. Bay! Bye~

Project 12 Days, Day 6, Check~

PS: Rules of Shiawase no Hibi is not to spread the site. So please ://///

It was that day. Around that time, it was still a bother for students to clean the classrooms after class. HE was a profound, silent, yet obidient kid at that time. And on that fateful day. HE met HIM. To HIM, the world a promising place for fulfillment. To HIM, everything was an opportunity for fun. And HIM, would seem actually to be the opposite of HE.

Was HE that conformable? For it seemed like the strings of fate have brought these two together. On that small day. It was just a regular after-class, cleaning duty. Yet, for these two, it would be the start of their adventure. Two individuals, individually different and fully distinguishable, yet individuals of the same page.

Around that time, it was still a bother for students to clean the classrooms after class. Yet. THEY didn’t mind. THEY pretty much cleaned everyday. THEY were like a carefully arranged figure. A classic, epic art indeed.

Fast forward through the years,

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Welcome to project ‘12 days’. Weeell~ First off, obviously start off the looooong message with a bang with an obvious greeting, no~? Merry Christmas, but more importantly… Happy birthday~! Mm mm~ what what. Waaait~ ‘12 days’? First off! You should know the rules of Shiawase no Hibi… But… You didn’t barely touched the link in the a-q forum, but yeah. The rule would be~ Uh. Er. Don’t spread out the link That’s about it.

Project 12 Days. Reaaally. Our last Christmas as classmates, schoolmates, but most importantly as… friends. Time does fly fast, I guess. Through out the years, these four years of High School life, these four years of knowing you. I decided to make the last Christmas as classmates, well, special.

12 Days, 12 special individuals. Seems you’re one of them :O But moving on~ I still remember those years. I don’t know if you heard it from me, but you… My first impression of you was that… You… You look awfully familiar to my classmate in gradeschool Those years passed by quick, yet. Unforgettable. From those simple days in 1st year, up to the ‘climax’ of the a-q 2nd year. And like what they say, the rest, is history. Those days.

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HE was disappointed. No one ever heard of the game HE liked. HE turned to HIM. And together, THEY made the game possible. Though a cheapskate place, this place called Netopia has been the utopia for them.

“Power Treads are the most important item, buy them first!”
“You should use easy heroes like Lich first!”
“Well, I prefer to get a Perseverance before Power Treads because it gives me longer time in the lane!”
“Puuuush!”

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“He~he~he! Then let’s practice 1v2!”
“Morphling power!”
“Shall we answer the 4th year’s challenge?”
“YEAH~!”
“Nice game nice game!”
“Huh? Second game?”
“Alriiight!”
“…”
“I suppose… Still, it was better if we won…”
“Yeah! We had a score of 1-1, so we’re still even!”

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“If we invited our classmates like Marc in this game, do you think they’ll like it?”
“Ehhh?”
“F..fine. 3v4, let’s do it!”
“Ha…h.. Nice game!”

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“Alright, meeting later at lunch in the MIC, right?”
“I’d say Omega 8 because we’re the ‘final eight’ that will last in this game!”
“Ehh~”
“Alpha… Q…?”

In such a sudden twist. Like that. Fate defined their paths. And soon… To their d-

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DotA. Sigh. I… Miss those days. Probably because of our simplicity at that time. Easeness at the game. Yet at the same time, into it fully. And… It was a game for us. Not me, not you, not them. But. Something that keeps us, together with them together.

Yet…

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HE grew weary. No, it was not because of the game THEY liked. It was… Because HE was a closed book. Supposedly to be. Yet. It was HIM. Who would try to open this book. A book who’s sense of normality isn’t… conventional and orthodox. Yet. It was HIM who kept on.

“…”
“Why?”
“No.”
“Eheh…”
“I suppose.”

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“Tournament in netopia!!!”
“a-q2 huh. You lead the a-q2, —-”
“YEAH! Nice practice.”
“E..eh..?”
“You… l…lied…”

Liar. HE called him a liar. It was HIM who digged through HE. And it is the same HIM that has been blamed. HE was likely to be the box, that HIM, Pandora, opened. And ever since then, all evil would be taken out, all towards Pandora. Yet, hope resides. Resides inside the box. Inside, in the inner most part.

In such a sudden twist. Like that. Fate defined their paths. And soon… To their destruction.

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Siiigh. Have you remembered? To quote,

”
Do you know what is your sin?
No, it isn’t because you ate the Forbidden Fruit.

Do you know what is your sin?
No, it isn’t because you listened the the snake.

Do you know what is your sin?
Then, that itself is your sin.
”

Simply. A look in the past. The sin. Happy days.

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“THEY were like a carefully arranged figure. A classic, epic art indeed.”

And now they would be… Similar to a cat and a dog. A pest to each other, destructive and chaos towards each other.

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Those happy days. They won’t be back, won’t they? Hope was hidden inside the box. Yet as much as the box wants to release hope, Pandora never even knew of its existence.

And now. Take out that gift. That would be… hope? The hope we both lost.

This is to you. A remnant of my happy past, a part of ’shiawase no hibi’. Let this be a guide to you. No, those days… are over. No longer will it be in our hands. But. This is a remembrance. A simple remembrance. Not only a remembrance of me. But also a reminder. I won’t be the last ‘box’ you would open.

I am sorry. Really. I am really bothersome. Useless. Imbecile. Perhaps in the end, I was the only ‘box’ you will ever meet. In the end. No. Till the end then. I will hope you that this will be the last box.

My classmate, my friend, my comrade. And… an important person in my life that has helped me to know myself better. Thanks. Thank you. Let this Christmas, along with the next tens of years be something you’d look forward you.

And with that, I close this. For these two years. Finally, perhaps. Pandora’s Box will finally be closed. To you, I wish you good look. I give you my thanks. And… my apologies. And with this, another chapter of our life ends.

And this is it. Thank you. Really, this is bothersome, it isn’t yet graduation ://// Anyways, Merry Christmas and Happy Birthday~! That will serve you both as a gift for both occassions, so don’t ask anymore

…you know how in the telephone, or anywhere else. You couldn’t say goodbye? Really, how annoying it is. …yet. I can’t even end this right. Sigh. The year is already ending though. And. This is where it ends. Where it should end. Right? To a better future. Towards on forward! And epic wrong grammar! Allllriiight~! Just remember, Shiawase no Hibi’s one and only rule. Don’t spread the link!

This is it, Eric, along with anyone else you know such as honya, illya, and anyone else to you, wishing a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year and a Happy Birthday. Much :3

Project 12 Days, Day 5, Check~!

Do you know of Project 12 Days? Well. Same as everyone who has been here. But first off, as a rule. Please do not give out the site to anyone.

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Welcome to project 12 Days.

Do you know?

Why?

What?

How?

This is simply a short message. For that cookie isn’t bound to go off as something simple. Just imagine it as a Fortune Cookie you drew up. What is your fortune?

Still do not understand?

It’s normal. Because I don’t make sense too.

Yet. You know? That cookie. It’s nothing, right? But… In the end, doesn’t it actually matter?

That cookie. Is something simple. Something to remember. Something not edible.

It is that simple. For your loyalty. For you. It’s a simple matter, is it not? Then…

Thanks. Thanks. Why? Because, without you. Then. There isn’t a cookie to give to.

This message. Really sounds silly. And stupid. But you should take in heart. That behind all of this, I am serious. Take in mind that always.

And as a message for you. You know? Try to find something important. As with all the saying goes, a person without a direction is bound nowhere. And… I do not want you to end up nowhere. Everyone has potential. Do not let the others dump you down.

You have the potential.

Find that important thing.

And take it.

As it will take you to your fate.

To your path.

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Merry Christmas~
Project 12 Days, Day 4.

Really. Do I still need this, I mean, I could talk to you like this anytime . Project 12 days, a spinoff from the whole ‘12 Days of Christmas’ thingy, then. What would you be?

You know, unlike most people. Unlike most of the closest friends I could have. You’re different. Why? Because you’re furfag, but srsly. It would only be you whom I am able to express sensitive things easily. It would be only you who can understand things seriously.

Yet. You’re still different. Why. Because you’re annoying. Whenever someone doesn’t need you. You’re there. How annoying. Go annoy Sagun instead, your best friend

But. What is the meaning of all this? Simple. Through this rocky road friendship. There’s one word. K fien. Two words that I have not expressed. Something you really need to know. And perhaps. It’s even cliched enough that you know what it is.

That gift? That silly gift. lolwut. Really, unlike the whole ‘gifts are important’ thing that you’ve read from my posts, that defies it ://// But you know what?

If you think of it this way, that that gift is special. Because that gift is where I say ‘thank you’. To you. A friend. A unique one. And. Stupid at the same time.

Would it become special? Then yes. Well. I hope so. And as the 12 Days project goes, you have been a part of it. To the whatever has happened in the past, I am sorry. I am stupid too. I am similar to at that aspect it seems. But in the end. I guess. Thanks. And good luck.

Even after we graduate though. Your services are still open right? Or else…………………………………………………

Thanks~ And have a fun filled Christmas.
Project 12 Days, Day 3.

… that sweet voice. Oh so adorable, so cute. Really, how could I have not fallen in such a deep moe to you?

A special one. Project 12 days, day number 2.

I have been reluctant. I have been disobedient. But you know? Really, I have tried, and continue to try. You make me happy everytime I see you, really. Full of ‘moe’ in every turn. Yet, I cannot help feel.

I feel sad. I feel angry at myself. You know. It’s irritating. It’s annoying. When I lie. When I sin. When. All those things happen. I am sorry. I’m really sorry. But you know? I haven’t succumbed. No. It is simply because… You are here. You exists. And with that in mind, never. Never shall I give my faith and belief.

For you are the icon of me and what I stand for. That simple smile. That forever, I wish to protect. Becausaver will it be.

In this moment. At this hour. I could remember you entirely. Everything. Well. No. Maybe not everything :3. But. Let it be known. For what I feel in me is true. For you are something I want to protect. From the unruly ‘fate’ that you suffer. As the same with anyone else.

To them, to those peope. Whose fate I can’t ‘defy’.

At the end of this. Then. Forever. I should stand and raise the banner. Your banner, under your name.

Project 12 Days, day 2.

I frowned. I sighed. Reaaally~…
I yawned. I deplored. Reaaaally~..
I bewailed. I lamented. Reaaally~..

Reaaaally~ I have wished. I have wished to have a friend…

A friend that won’t be shorter…
A friend that won’t talk like a child…
A friend that won’t be shallow…
A friend that won’t trouble me…

Yet… I have also wished for a friend…

…that is enthusiastic
…that is care/ful in both ways
…that is silly
…that is similar to a pet dog

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Project 12 Days. Target 12 people. Important ones. Welcome If you forgot, you’re not supposed to tell anyone about this site, so if you’ve got that right, let’s move on!

That small runt. That halfing-sized four-eyed boy. That. That. You. Really. Why…

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Despite of what happened. Despite of recognizing your actions. Despite knowing of my selfishness. I would still not understand. That fateful day. It was only at that day. Why?

Am I not a bother? Am I not too dependent? Am I not boring…? Then why?

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Why have you forgave such guy without any remorse?

Even in exchange of someone else.

You could have left me.

You do not even need me.

And…

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See. What do you think? Have you regret it all now? Despite that sin. Despite the uselessness to you. You still chose that.

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That decision… made me… happy. Cold, emotionless I may be to you. Yet. I am thankful. I am, and have always been. These moments. These times. I know it’s silly. The irony of that. Yet. I always rely on you. I always trust you. I am thankful. To have a friend such as you…

In this Christmas. Our last Christmas as classmates, but… is it still possible to have a Christmas as friends? Eitherway… In this Christmas. Then. I present to you. Of what would be project 12 Days in it’s entirety. You have been a friend. A special friend. My thanks would be eternal, if not for human fatigue.

That gift. It’s a small token of my gratitude. If you’d still recall a year ago. Then yes, I suppose. Gifts are that special for me. And so, I hope this small gift would be also to you. Seeing how you have been supporting me all these time. Then. I hope. That pointless thing would be something to help you. Guide you. And. In the darkest of hours, remind you of the happy times.

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…I may have not gotten the ideal friend.
…I may not have him taller than me.
…I may have not been a friend.

Yet in the end. I realized.
I didn’t need that ideal friend.
You could suffice.
You were enough.

Shiawase no Hibi, Project 12 Days, Day 1. Check~

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Well, that’s it then. I guess. Should be. Thanks, and have a Merry Christmas. Hopefully the sound synched fine :3

Is it bad to fall inlove with something not real?

Ah well. That’s what I’ve been doing so far in my life, so I’ll just do so! :O

I won’t post the name because gugel will own me with lots of hits again so… yeah. Much <3 new moe

Hah. There’s been much changes since. Last time. I don’t know.

Let’s start it off with DotA. I’ve been recently ‘drafted’ into team KAGED - Ken/Andrew/Gian/Eric/Dacs team, the 4th year powerhouse containing what we can call, best of the best. Although there are some members I can debate about being worthy in it, I’ll just give them the benefit of doubt. For now, I’m having an okay time with them, although hopefully, they’ll slowly open up for me and I could put in a good strat and gameplay changes, such as the early pushing matter. The other day, may be the final day as a CT; where I ka-chinged 100 from team KAGED with Marc. There’s really just something lacking in team CT, whether they’re not just really used to 5v5, or they just insta-flail, I don’t know. All I know is, there’s more future in KAGED, so yeah. Not that I’m leaving CT, but you know. You won’t expect a CT vs KAGED anytime soon.

‘Sides I’ve slowly telling them Jungling/Bottle strats, it won’t be long that I can show them hefty hawt league strats and all. But as a normal friends, I don’t think I could stand it without changing :3 So long live CT for that, for that is something I am blessed with them :/

Also, whether it was because of the CT vs ET/KAGED match, much people starting to DotA again, Jerrick getting a hold of Lanaya, Mico playing again even though he had his ‘last’ game during the retreat, well, that’s that.

Moving on from DotA; I don’t know. I’ve been too friendly with Irvin lately :3 Not that it’s a bad thing but you know. Not only me, but people around me too, people who I knew was against each other, it’s quite a good feeling we’re on a same level now, although there might be a place where it’s not right, atleast it’s more even now than ever. All I can say is, it’s something refreshing. Haah~

On to that, question. Is Gian really that stubborn :/ Seriously, Hare Hare Yukai is seriously overrated, or he/they has nothing else to poke upon. Either way I can see he’s completely dumbfounded, not even remembering about what happened a year ago, although there’s less, I still feel that odd streak of anger. But seriously, stop overrating that song. Oh, and is it just me, but I do kinda noticed that he’s on purposely letting me hear it. Like, Domeng and I was going to buy Icetea while before that they scream Hare Hare Yukai, so I seriously want to go and take a breather. Going back, there’s another song, but what. He screams to repeat that Hare Hare Yukai again. Seriously, someone’s either on purpose or completely an idiot :/

Bleh~ But moving on that. I’ve found my new Lucky Star~ For those who still does not know of it; dunno. I’m quite moved on nowadays with Lucky Star. Not just the show, but it’s quickly becoming a symbol for me. I’ve been putting it in every freaking thing, from activities, to the retreat activities. A ‘Lucky Star’ is there :3 But moving on that;

SchoolMate eroge rocks hard. Not the ero part, but everything else of it is simply amazing. It’s the first 3d Anime Game I’ve ever played so go easy on me, but I have to say, it’s quite a really different experience from normal Tsukihime/Yume Miru/etc. There’s that liveliness on the character, and how absolutely it made me go KAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIII~ mode much. Not only that, but the SchoolMate Photo is another thing in the bargain. It’s something a photographer-but-not can only dream off :3 It’s something made off hawt and win much. Story-wise, I don’t really know since I don’t understand. The thing I hate though, is that it’s really an eroge, especially the aftermath which most people goes for where in you could just do that over and over again in a lot of styles. Another thing to point is; breasts. Seriously, out of the 5 heroines, only my Lucky Star has ‘normal’ sized breast. Everyone else either seems like they came from some BB-themed Doujinshi or one of those obscenely-huge-breasted-but-normal ones :/ Either way they’re still hawt, but I much prefer cuteness anytime pl0x.

Speaking on Eroge, from all this time, Kagetsu Tohya has been completely released, although they’re still doing the usual update routine, it’s good that something I saw… 6 months ago? From an anon in 4chan (was it?) became to a real full project. Much thanks to the team, as for now, I’m wandering about that ‘a day’ scenario :3

But most of all, change. All of these are changes. Yet, there’s something on me I want to change. All these months, you know already, change change change. Yet I cannot. I haven’t found my Lucky Star. But now, I feel something from Natsume-san, and all of these awesome photos of her I’ve been doing :3 But yeah, inspiration doesn’t really mean anything if I don’t work. So I’m kinda trying to do something to fill everything in me with pure Natsume love :3 And yeah, moeism forever~

Looking on to the future. Haah~ A quarter is almost ending… 3 to go…

Weelll, first off, first post after a week~ I really do not know; I just didn’t feel like posting after the retreat, and only do now, since, I may as well forget everything I was going to. So I have to do it before I forget

First; let’s talk about Karma. As an opening, here~ So today dismissal time, I was there with Raf and the others, lol-ing around. Then they don’t want to go to the CR so I left them. Going to the CR… 3 little kids playing some sort of tag, one did a whooooooooop and fell. I thought to myself. Ouch. That’s gotta hurt. And laughed a bit to myself. In the CR, crcrcr, I thought, heeey. I should be a role model, and help the poor kid up. I laughed again to what I was saying to myself. And just as I was leaving the CR, I almost slipped. Karma-ed So next time I should help the kid eh?

The thing is; there’s this thing that prevents me to do it. You know, you wouldn’t really like doing it, being seen doing it, it’s something only seen in TVs, not in the real world etc etc. But I wanna ask myself; are there really no people who’ll help out in the real world? Because this world is simply a staged one, we’re still in school, not a real world. What you do, everyone will care. So; will there someone who’ll not heed the looks of others in the real world and help out? *sigh* I want to do it too :/ or something.

Moving on, back to some days, reflections. First off, to my family. Simply put, retreat owns up npnp. Moving on from that, reflections on that problem. I don’t know. Seriously I don’t know. I said I’ll leave it to God, as long as happiness and righteousness is the path it takes. But you really can’t stop moe and still want to do it. Maybe it’s a coincidence, but it isn’t Nodoka anymore, not just the numbers, but many things. Lost my moe? Probably. Not only that, but you know. Hating, fake hating, all of that. Currently, I really don’t know my stand, nor its stand. It’s sooo weird.

Not to mention, when you’re many persons inside. You know me, different names, supposed different peoples. But seriously though, I don’t get myself. I don’t know myself. Silent, kinda-shy, pure and good. Yet there’s this side of trashtalking, loud, and all. I don’t get myself …so… Quoting myself from the past… How can you help others if you don’t know yourself? I keep on helping others yet I can’t to myself. *sigh*

Moving on; moe seems to be moving I don’t know, but Jei-kun has really been… special recently. From (forced) sitting on his lap the other day, the treat earlier, and all those precious time together. Don’t know. Moe. Seriously an amazing force.

And thinking about precious time… I’m still not using and spending my time effectively. I should really start moving. These days passing by one by one; all these beloved moments with my Comtech Family. You know, it’s really something to miss. Moving on to College Life; something I really don’t want to. I want everything to be like this. It isn’t achieving happiness, but it’s happy enough for me. It’s something you want to be in forever. Sadly, time doesn’t stop for anyone, anything. Sooo, all these days, the hard quizzes, the teamwork with the family, the little chit chats, those moe moments, bad moments, fun times, all of them. Slowly, surely, everyone realizes it. It’s out of our grasp, it’s just our fate, as it is with all students. Months. A wee bit more, and goodbye. Separation. This is goodbye?

As it is in eroges, especially those school themed, which are oh so memorable, I may not have the lovely <3 moments, but I do know, it’s been, seriously, heck a lot of fun. Speaking of eroge, I’ve started on my Crescendo just yesterday. And I may say, it just hits right the spot; graduation theme for a graduating students. Characters are really memorable and sweet, just wanna play more.

As an update, recently, just this week, I discovered something godly. PlayAsia accepts Western Union sending~! Yes~! So I’m now farming to buy Higu Character CD 3 which ofcourse is the lovely Rika/Satoko album <3 Not to mention adding some other albums, depending on how much I’d farm at the end of the month. Gogogo~

As a last one; I must say. Summer season is definitely hot. But most of all, I really can’t wait for them cicadas’ cries again. …speaking of cicadas; I think I’ve heard them at Batulao at the retreat. If they are classified as cicadas though

That’s it for me, bye beeee~